Five Days Away.

Were five days away! And I am so excited! But really scared... I think I still have a bunch of unwanted feelings bottled up inside that I'm afraid might come out unexpectedly... But I think we'll be fine... I just want to be happy with him again. And we're getting better but... idk we'll be ok. I've already started packing and I've gotten everything ready to come down. I've got to find some things and finish doing alot of laundry >.< Work tonight, then four days. I can't believe this is even happening!

Protect you from the pain.

Thinking I wouldn't recover from a 3-days weekend, ah I was wrong! I woke up incredibly early this morning, got ready and look great :) Really, and despite the cold, I'm wide awake and on top of things (such as the homework I didn't do over the weekend!). And I got to school early, and was able to finish it. Bad news, I failed a Trig. test miserably. :( Hope it doesn't affect my grade too too much.. Probably will. :/ But, at least, my next check will be awesome though :) Can't wait to spend it on what I'm gonna spend it on aha ;) And a new winter coat! Yes! Can't wait to get down there though. 23 days left to spend alone. Time is finally beginning to fly by. Soon, under twenty days, and soon after, under ten. That's when the countdown REALLY BEGINS :)

<3 Love you Jas.

Almost Perfect Day.

Raining outside! Had to get a ride from my mom which means I had some extra time to get ready and look nice and make coffee :) Lookin great but not fair that every other school in this county doesn't have school but it's nice that we don't have school Monday. And I really really hope I don't work Monday :/ I'd appreciate a day off and a day to sleep in at least. And Mondays and Tuesdays are usually my days off.

27 days! Coming fast! My friend Shari took her vacation to Massechusettes to see her boyfriend, long distance relationship, only she's only going to be there until Monday. Glad mine is 10 days :)

Less than a month!!! =)

Another BEAUTIFUL fall morning spent away. Aha I love how I just so happen to always write a journal whether or not I'm always updating the blog online -- at least I do it on paper! 2nd period...i might update the blog.
Sittin in Trig. everyone is graphing sin & cos. I actually understand this pointless shit! Makes me happy, just hope it starts this easy.

I was, for the last week or so, considering buying plane tix to go down to NC for xmas or new years to spend iwth him and surprise him but I figured theyd be expensive and I was right. But Jas said he wanted to be here when I started packing up to move so. I hope that goes all too well =) besides, I couldnt come for christmas. my fam would probabbly be pissed and i have a TON of xmas parties to go to. it ridiculoussss. So I suppose its alright.

just cant wait to GTFO of here! sooo excited!

annnnd im super burnt and hurting haha.

30 DAYS!!!!!!! <333

October...

Another monday morning and its getting colder and colder and...lonlier. 31 days. Exactly 1 month. time couldnt go by any slower :( it really sucks some of the things im stuck going through and he cant be here to hold me through them. so its very lonely and in my times of need of...pleasure ;) im left with nothing! this sucks! im so glad this was it. so glad this was the longest we'd be apart, so glad the time from when I come back home and the time I move will be a short 2 months! SO glad Im MOVING! SO glad my parenst are putting trust in me to take my vacation, I never would have imagined this possible! It will probably be the most amazing thing Id ever be able to experience -- a vacation on my own! =) something I never thought I'd get to have or or be allowed to do. And I am very surprised my mom is 'for' me to move. My life is beginning, and I am so happy HE is in my life while all this is happening! it makes it so much less scary.

I couldnt be ANY happier =)
<3

Psych gets boring..

Finally October! Which only means I have to get through this month and then I get to be down with my baby! And 2 payments away! Which means my next check I'll be buying his Christmas gifts! Exciting kinda, that we get to celebrate early.. Things seem different lately..maybe I'll just wait it out and see where things go.. But I just dunno.. Rather not talk about it here though. Keep it to myself.

Can't wait to get down there though..